TRUST YOUR INSTINCTS NO MATTER HOW RIDICULOUS THEY MIGHT SEEM
Always trust your instincts, no matter how ridiculous they may seem, or if you think you are overreacting. Our instincts are our inner guidance system, the same system our Higher Self (soul) and spirit guides use to communicate with us, we cannot always see the big picture, so trusting how we feel over what we think is so vital.
Today I was at the beach with my dogs Wolf and Eleven, I walked into the ocean for a swim and they left me to go off exploring. When I next turned around I couldn't see where they were but I could see a figure walking down the beach from the corner of my eye, assuming they would continue and pass me, I kept checking to see if I could see Wolf, I like keeping my eye on him when other humans or dogs are around, not everyone seems to like leaving dogs to communicate with each other, as their instincts guide them to. The man that was walking down the beach entered the water a couple of meters next to me, something about it felt really strange because we were at an open beach with no one else in sight, and only a few people passing for a walk occasionally. There was so much space to swim, and my spot was not necessarily the calmest place, it was just convenient in terms of where I set up my towel. I thought i would sit with the feeling for a moment, maybe he just wanted to swim where someone else was, I continued to paddle in the shallow water, the guy started doing the exact same, something did not feel right and I decided to trust how I felt and slowly move further away. As I exited the water I saw Wolf, he was sussing out another man that came down the beach, as I went to him and picked up little El, the man who had been swimming near me had also exited the water and was not far behind me, Wolf went straight up to him and the guy put his hands up and seemed worried Wolf would hurt him, as I went close to Wolf and asked him to come, the man said something to me which I didn't hear clearly, I smiled and walked away. I had no desire to interact with him, and I feel his body language of worry with my dog showed he was conscious of his own behaviour, Wolf knew something that I couldn't quite pick up, and he is never apologetic at telling someone to back off if there is something out in their energy field. I don't believe the man knew I had dogs in my company. The experience reminded me of how thankful I am to have Wolf, it further showed me how very right I was at choosing which dog I wanted, he is wild but so in tune with his instincts and unapologetic at communicating his boundaries for himself and me! He does not attack, and is not vicious, but he warns people and dogs to back off if need be, and his warning is quite confronting if you don't know him.
I know I can be safe on my own, but I feel even more at ease with Wolf, I was swimming topless and sometimes I feel that creates energy in other people which I want nothing of, I enjoy the freedom and the feeling of bliss that comes from swimming topless, I enjoy being nude even more, but do not always feel comfortable enough to do so on my own. Having Wolf somehow makes me feel even more safe to swim without a top on, he is so protective of me that no one with skewed energy can get by him. The whole experience also reminded me how important it is to always trust our instincts, we cannot always understand another being, read them clearly, or know their intentions, but we can know what we feel, and it is better to listen to that guidance system and be unapologetic in following it! I used to worry (and still do sometimes) that I would upset or offend someone if I don't interact back with them, I never want someone to feel rejected by me, however the more I observe Wolf and how communicates with other dogs, and they communicate with him, I see how raw and honest they all are each other, they either like each other and want to play, or they don't, and they let each other know! When I check in with my feelings, I either want to interact with someone or I don't, it isn't about rejecting another being, it is about honouring how I feel. I would much prefer someone told me they do not want to interact with me rather than grudgingly interact with me while thinking negative thoughts. Synchronistically I was going through my icloud storage tonight deleting old conversations and saw a handful of conversations I had going with men specifically who I had no romantic interest in, but who appeared to have a romantic interest in me. I would have saved myself and them a lot of time and effort if I were more clear with them that I was not interested - a lot of us seem to sweeten how we speak with each other, worried about the other's feelings. Speaking our truth may hurt someone, but the cut is very clean and quick, it heals much faster than a slow dragging of the knife.
It does not matter if you feel you are overreacting, better to overreact than to encounter an experience that is not for your Highest Good.
I hid behind rubbish bins when I was 17, walking from home after my year 12 formal to our after party. A car passed me while I was walking and then slowed down, I could hear music inside of the car and a feeling rushed through me that said RUN! I ran, and I hid behind some rubbish bins, I felt absolutely ridiculous doing so – who did I think I was, am I that vain to think I'm beautiful enough for strangers to want something from me? SO many thoughts similar to those ran through my head. The car meanwhile did the block and drove by a few times, it definitely seemed like it was searching, no one else was around, we were in the middle of the night! When everything was quiet and no sign of the car again I ran from the bins to the party where everything was forgotten. I only truly understood the experience as I grew older and discovered that not all people have the best intention for others. To this day I am so thankful I ran, as ridiculous as I felt, it was worth it, I rather spend a few minutes hiding behind some bins looking and feeling ridiculous, than knowing what the other path looked like. Trust those instincts, it is a very powerful guidance system, tuned specifically for you. Never feel like you need to apologise to another being, being compassionate to yourself and honouring how you feel is just as important as being compassionate to others, and honouring whatever their truth is by deciding to either interact with them, or not.